Been a while…

Fox and Raven plot alchemical shenanigans
(Image Robert Helman)

…hope to be back to catch up shortly.

I never seem to recognise it when it starts. Always creeps up, and before you know it I’m in nesting mode. Not the good type of nesting; much more the “build the walls thick, strong and high” type nesting. Shut out the world; settle into this massive, warm duvet. Sleep for a month. Maybe one more…

That type of nesting.

The Work goes on. The bone deep weariness turns into physical pain. Push through. Must be an old injury. Yet it persists; in glorious waves of sharp, incessant, dragging anguish. Tired, so tired. Why am I SO tired? There is Work to be done! There is, also, work to be done! That can wait. The paperwork forms its own nest on an already overburdened desk…

My first clue is usually the desire to be involved in some group activity. First time? Don’t laugh. Edited some three thousand Wikipedia articles in just over three weeks. Nights and weekends mainly. God, I hate Wikipedia. Only one remains semi-intact and reasonably factual today. The others went, some more rapidly than others, the way of all Wiki articles, slipping into the mire of misinformation and “alternative facts” so beloved of the hordes of adolescent trolls hell-bent on destroying Jimmy Wales’ utopian dream.

Not this time. This time it was the ridiculous amount I may have spent on what could be considered retail therapy over at Amazon. Six weeks in. I look up. The realisation that even if I had a lifetime, I’d be pushed to be able to read ALL the esoteric, gnostic, and world spirituality books that were arriving at an ever-increasing pace at my place of work. Most of the verbiage is likely to be regurgitated ideas lifted from more authoritative tomes I’d read twenty years ago anyway, and none seemed relevant to the current focus of the Work…

Shit!! I’ve let it happen again!

Brain chemistry. Creeps up on you. Though you believe you will recognise the signs if (when) it happens again, you generally don’t: well, I certainly don’t. Trickster! Raven mind. Fox brain! With allies such as they…

The lengthening days should bring some relief. The pharmacy awakes…

 

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