Been a while…

Fox and Raven plot alchemical shenanigans
(Image Robert Helman)

…hope to be back to catch up shortly.

I never seem to recognise it when it starts. Always creeps up, and before you know it I’m in nesting mode. Not the good type of nesting; much more the “build the walls thick, strong and high” type nesting. Shut out the world; settle into this massive, warm duvet. Sleep for a month. Maybe one more…

That type of nesting.

The Work goes on. The bone deep weariness turns into physical pain. Push through. Must be an old injury. Yet it persists; in glorious waves of sharp, incessant, dragging anguish. Tired, so tired. Why am I SO tired? There is Work to be done! There is, also, work to be done! That can wait. The paperwork forms its own nest on an already overburdened desk…

My first clue is usually the desire to be involved in some group activity. First time? Don’t laugh. Edited some three thousand Wikipedia articles in just over three weeks. Nights and weekends mainly. God, I hate Wikipedia. Only one remains semi-intact and reasonably factual today. The others went, some more rapidly than others, the way of all Wiki articles, slipping into the mire of misinformation and “alternative facts” so beloved of the hordes of adolescent trolls hell-bent on destroying Jimmy Wales’ utopian dream.

Not this time. This time it was the ridiculous amount I may have spent on what could be considered retail therapy over at Amazon. Six weeks in. I look up. The realisation that even if I had a lifetime, I’d be pushed to be able to read ALL the esoteric, gnostic, and world spirituality books that were arriving at an ever-increasing pace at my place of work. Most of the verbiage is likely to be regurgitated ideas lifted from more authoritative tomes I’d read twenty years ago anyway, and none seemed relevant to the current focus of the Work…

Shit!! I’ve let it happen again!

Brain chemistry. Creeps up on you. Though you believe you will recognise the signs if (when) it happens again, you generally don’t: well, I certainly don’t. Trickster! Raven mind. Fox brain! With allies such as they…

The lengthening days should bring some relief. The pharmacy awakes…



About A Misanthropic Bear

Intermittent posting of random touchstones, memories and events. This wasn't meant to be what it would become... But then, is it ever?
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25 Responses to Been a while…

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  3. Nice to see you back. Good to see you. Now I am missing in action. Been having some medical problems.

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  4. bert0001 says:

    I had a similar experience, sleeping in around mid january, and only 6 weeks later waking up slowly, step by step, … and yes, I read again, not unlike you, the stuff from 15 years ago, and discovered that not much has changed. One thing recently changed: I have slept through winter, but spring is there again to wake us up πŸ™‚

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  5. Sue Vincent says:

    I wonder how many of Them hibernate at once? πŸ˜‰ xx

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  6. CatLane says:

    Soo, I guess I probably shouldn’t make any book suggestions here…or CDs….??

    I do think that many of us if not most, in The Work go through these cycles and need to cocoon, then experience an upswing of energy. I tend to worry about you when you disappear,so it is really good to hear you’re back. Much love from the zoo….

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    • Running Elk says:

      Haha. Nope – it was your sudden influx of useful recommendations that poked the sleeping bear! Mr Searles is on loop, and it was a moment with him, and a white rabbit with a fish tale, that kind of broke the spell.. πŸ˜‰ xx


  7. thekohser2 says:

    May I try to blow your mind? You rightly complain of “the mire of misinformation and ‘alternative facts’ so beloved of the hordes of adolescent trolls hell-bent on destroying Jimmy Wales’ utopian dream”… but what if I told you, *that* is the dream of Jimmy Wales? Think about it. Wales has had the opportunity many times to implement a “Pending Changes” feature on Wikipedia that would dramatically reduce nonsense edits and misinformation (because you’d need a second “approver” before changes appear in a Wikipedia article), but he has never imposed that simple change on the English Wikipedia (even though it works just fine on the German Wikipedia). Why do you think that is? Do you think it might be because with a protagonist and an antagonist working on an article, that’s two addicted users, rather than a stable, reliable article only with readers (and not editors)?

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  8. alienorajt says:

    Welcome back, indeed. So lovely to see a link to one of your posts first thing this morning. Our bodies tell us things we ignore at our peril: I had to sprain and ankle and bruise a knee to listen to mine! I can so easily identify with what you say: I have barely touched the Work this winter. xxx

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  9. Welcome back to the unreal world…

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  10. Eileen says:

    I think my spirit, like my aged body, is thoroughly worn out from the constant need to adjust to totally bizarre changes in weather. That’s my story and I’m clinging to it.

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